Oviously over the pamdemic motivation was hard to come by. I found myself having difficulty drawing simple sketches to do with work and in my spear time. My drawings weren’t up to my full potential and I became slower at them too. I then discovered that I had an art block.

To gain my motivation back I understood that there was no room for perfection because I had less time to complete my FMP than usharal and perfection takes too much time. After a while I didn’t aim to get motivated or hoped to be motivated because I had a feeling that this art block was long term. Because Iam a perfectionist it was really difficult to fill my sketchbook with sketches that weren’t up to my full potential but I had to choose quantity over quality this time which was my biggest challenge as a perfectionist.

Over quarantine materials were limited so I had to make do with sculpturing. I chose sculpturing for my two last projects for the same reason and after a while I became fond of sculpturing because it doesn’t require a lot of thinking and it’s a method where you can automatically see progress.

My FMP I constantly had to change plans with my FMP because time was catching on and my ideas were too extreme for that time scale. At first my FMP was meant to be a sculpture made of fabric posing as it was ripping through a blanket and screaming, it was meant to represent a freeing feeling expressed through anger. As time was catching on I had to change my idea because the timing to complete the idea was unrealistic. I eventually changed the idea and forgot about the blanket so I changed it to thee sculpture posing as it was tearing it’s head open out of anger and frustration. I liked this idea better because it was a lot more simpler. Near the end time was getting too close so I decided not to make the sculpture out of fabric so it know became a paper sculpture. That was a quick decision and I wasn’t that disappointed that it didn’t tern out how I planned it because it made things easier to complete. I wasn’t used to settling with simple materials because I always want to try something new with every FMP but at that point I had no choice.

If I had more time I would have liked to make my FMP sculpture out of fabric and show my textile skills. I was in a debate in my head about deciding if I should color my paper sculpture in white paint to cover the prints on the news paper but Iam learning not to go all out with this project and to appreciate what I have created..